Why would you let me stay here?

I keep on contemplating if I should apply for a job before actually leaving for my internship. I mean, my internship has not been totally approved, but I keep on giving myself the pat on the back saying, "let's stay positive". I know I did not really want it hugely at the first place, but now that it totally sank into me - my direction for goal goes out to my west. What I'm actually waiting for right now is the last ever process to approve if I am really going to land on this job. Okay, I'm not keeping anymore secrets. I actually was accepted to intern at Hyatt Regency Jacksonville, Florida; and I'm only waiting for my papers for my visa documents and interview. I really do pray that I could land it on my first try. I don't know the processing for it, but I know I would be able to study it as soon as I have the necessary documents. Meanwhile, as I was saying.  The contemplation has been about pursuing a job in a bookstore that we all book lover

"I would have loved to be part of the indie community. But I wasn't. I was looking for a community, I don't even know any people who are musicians. I never met that indie popular indie, whoever the fuck that is. Who IS indie? First of all, I can't really get my head around what indie music is. Because if you've heard of it, it's sort of pop music, right? Because it's, like, popular? Or is it just that it's not on the radio? It's not like I was in an indie community and then I blew up. It's like, I was living on the street and I'm not – like, for real, you know what I'm saying?" -Lana Del Rey One thing that brings me closer to marrying Lana (in my dreams), would be her sense of style and that involves her hair, her make-up, her clothes and her body. But the very main reason why I love her is her drunken feel like voice that soothes my soul. The perfect mix of mysterious agenda and coming out of the flesh.