Why would you let me stay here?

Tryin' what a light post could do to a 200 iso film at night; + burn. A blurry + grainy shot of a statue elephant. Close up: fast moving car turning into light streaks. Light streaks from the sun + a shadow of my friend somewhere along the leaves. Obvious failed attempt to hold on to a cloud. The mixture of colored pens + plastic cover = DIY colored lens; + burns. Obvious intersection of people-over-people. I swear to you that the fading pink flower was my main subject. NOT Once again, the leaves were my subject. *sarcasm* Life isn't this dark and orange-y. Light streaks from the stairs. You know how certain subscriptions on the web gave you monthly mail about their website? Well, the Lomography website gave a web magazine sometime last month and (don't screw what I'm about to say) I had just recently opened the links connected to the mail. Talk about late! But I guess reading from it, makes me miss...

Crazy how I think my emotions are in total jeopardy--laughing at a sudden thought, then crying the next. Initially felt like an escapee of mental or a woman on PMS (lol yeah). Yesterday was just a sample of it. Yeah yeah, I could have just slept on my heavily bruised heart about issues that has long been planted, but I decided otherwise. Those were the times I could not handle, or yet, handle on my own. My mind does not suffice my own judgement and realization, that it felt like the need to burst into poisonous juice. Desperate, probably, but desperate for comfort.  I, of all people, does not like to show my weakness. I always want to show the best side of me. I don't just give in to negative emotions at the moment. But when the night usually enclose to midnight, that's where my Dementoring stats begin (like last night, at least). A lot of people say that it's okay to be weak, it's okay to reveal my negative emotions, because that's the perfe...

"I'm gonna be worth it.  ☆ " Many may wonder, if this is love related, or work perhaps? or just another thought in mind? Well, ever since I had my BlackBerry and actually used my BlackBerry messenger, I had a little thought in mind. Since BBM is giving an option to present a personal message on your status, I thought 'what could be my status right now?'. Well ever since I had a lot of down sided events in my life, I had a lot of realizations... realizations in which why these events happened. Some may say it was God's will to do it to my life, for me to learn? to experience? But I must include that it also is my own will that made these events happen. So what does this left me? IMPROVEMENT. I have never been so determined to change, to actually have change as a topic of movement. I may improve in things like studies or work, but right now the only thing I want to do is change myself. Sometimes you begin to realize how long have you been living and ...

Yesterday, without proper planning, my mom hired our laundry ladies to help clean the house. I was not warned before hand, so I did not have proper mind thinking. They started out with the old room, in which I used to stay in. After an hour, they switched to my room and cleaned every side of it. This gave me a thought to reassemble the parts of my room. From the usual bed-near-the-window-with-its-broken-bed-board , it was switched around like the photos below. Still needs a bit of styling though! The bed now lies facing the window and beside the door. I removed the old-nasty-broken bed boards and just revived my old mattress. I have been trying to persuade my parents to buy me a new bed. ;)  These are all the clothes and junk hidden on that old room, I used to reside in. Look at all those clothes! Looks like garbage in some point? But can be someone's treasure. Last night, we kind-of-like held a garage sale , Ehh!, it was a Terrace sale. ...