Why would you let me stay here?

We all have that little dream we've been hiding from others — that dream we silently hope of doing in our lives, but still has not made progress just because... I bet you don't know that I had a secret dream to be in a band. That started out when I was in HS, when the mainstream past time was to form bands and play instruments. I even asked my Dad to buy me a guitar; the progress — I learned to play one song. See?.. progress right there. (period) Not to mention, I (also) know how to play the keyboards. My grandmother pushed me to have lessons of such when I was in Grade 4, but stopped after sometime because I realized that it wasn't for me. Just before April 5, I continue to lived that silent dream — mainly my mind was acting to my dream and my body's on idle mode (like seriously) —but  when my friend Patt asked me to model a sort-of Rockband album shoot, it was like a dream come true. LOL I guess my tiny little dream got exposed without her knowing. Hihi ...

I dreamt of my ex-crush and it seemed quite a shock to me about dreaming such thing. Cause for one, he would never act the way he acted, in real life. Second, he is already a past. It was really a shock to me, cause until now, its still protruding in my mind. He did something spontaneous that would make your head go wild. Haha! It was even funny cause after that spontaneous moment we had in my dream, I rushed to a friend and told her everything that happened in just a spur of a moment. So could someone answer my question about dreams and being sub-conscious. ;)