Why would you let me stay here?

Don't you think everything we ever hate in our life, gets a little pounce or an idea in our heads to try it out or discover the sides into that something we hate? It gets a little "Oh, that won't happen." or "Bet on me, I won't trade that for anything". It could seriously stray on that side forever ... Oh you, I don't believe in that theory, or in any other case, "idea" of staying in that closed idea of that monstrous side with lacking depth. Believe me when I say that people would always change sides; we might have a side for the moment, but for arguable and compassionate terms, we all could agree to take what's happening on the other side. Take lipstick, for example. I fckin hate lipstick for all it's worth during my childhood era (oh, how times have past!). For every prom or Santacruzan that I have to endure with that freakin' distasteful taste of bloody lipstick that does not even smell good too (plus the color makes me ...

I'm starting to see a beginning of a new chapter in my life, unfolding after this coming week. My practicum's about to end, and my life would never be the same again. It puts me in an uncomfortable state knowing that my future will be at my own hands starting on.

I remember a friend asking me,  "Tin. Bakit ang lalim mo?"  I, in my natural defense would say,  "Hindi ah. Snorkeling level pa nga lang eh." And on that day, I began to wonder if this is the new me? Am I finally reaping the lessons I garnered, for me to say such deep  words (if they're really that deep)? I can't say that it really does come with age to say things that are deep (I'm not saying that I'm old LOL). I think it comes with experience. Things we experience in this world varies from person to person, and what a kid has experienced when I was their age totally differs from mine. I have my own sets of familiarities in life. Though I have a vague conclusion on why people think of me as such. I am an intense thinker, for I love thinking of everyday scenarios in life. I hate doing it, but I love doing it, at the same time. Thinking makes me feel at home and in touch of my own life, that's one of the probable reasons why I'm ...

This would probably be the weirdest post I'll ever had.  Lo and behold! My black flats that's utterly torn and decayed.  Just before the year started, I told myself to buy new things for the new year. Time spent on other things was (I guess) prioritized, which led me to forget to buy some necessities and that includes a replacement for such shoes. This pair of flats that is downright miserable in itself, lasted for quite a while. To tell you a little history, when I bought this pair at SM, it was the last pair of that style. I was indeed very lucky to find such pair of shoe in my size (though a little pricey than what I expected to buy), it was worth it. This pair of flats saved me from all the struggles of walking, the unexpected rain, the sickening flood, and all those hassles in life. I never had such a pair that sustained me through all those bad memories. LOL. I admit though, that in some way, I took these shoes for granted. I am sorry. :(  But this da...

A week has passed and I'm completely happy that I haven't thought of getting tired of my intern job at Thai Airways. Not that I ought to be, but because I used to be so tired on doing things the moment I get every job done.  Socializing in getting to know everyone in the office seemed more of a normal thing now than before- for I usually do it as a chore.  Mistakes makes sense to me, as I have realized that it helps you in finding the right answers in life (plus makes your life much easier). Earlier this week, I started with this excel task that I need to accomplish. Guessing from afar, I knew I would be able to finish it only by the end of the week, but because of a sudden mistake, my mind produced neurons that made me pop answers on making my life easier. I finished the tasked early on! Nobody is perfect, even me. I realized that I'm too bossy when it comes to being perfect; in work, dressing and other world matters. I realized this week that I should not be mad at pe...

January 3, the day I realized how much I changed.  picture from  Jessa Celeste , my snickery cookies 'n cream friend My friend, Jessa , invited me to MoA yesterday to have some bonding time before classes resume. Not really knowing who would come on that day, I agreed because I thought I need more bonding time with her. I had the hunch that she invited people, but I did not realized they were the people whom I missed. They're my first friends from the very first term I entered CSB.  I don't know if I said (or rather typed) it before, but they were the friends whom I love so much. I never had such friends like them before and it placed me in utmost glee having them, though I don't think they know that. I almost remembered the feeling I had before, when I was around them. I had the best feeling and I'm not exaggerating! Time, school and situations led me to drift apart from this group, but yesterday brought me again to that glee I felt 3 years ago. ...

You know how disastrous it is commuting in Manila. Firstly, the weather is unpredictable that you can't even dive into the suns rays without an umbrella for the scourging heat can melt you down, plus having no umbrella around when the weather bipolarized itself to rain won't lead you to being sane. Add to it, the pollution  produced by vehicles; owners being insensitive enough, let their cars be an instrument for our city to cough down its phlegm. The never ending pollution blown out from public vehicles, that produces a layer of black foundation to every commuter in town. The hassle and bustle of people without proper organization for change and discipline are actually mortifying. Now, why am I saying this? Ralph , Faith and I went to NAIA 1 to submit another round of resumes for our practicum next term. We are not some rich daughters and sons of our parents, thus the only way to get there without cashing out all our money, was to commute. The only PUVs we know, who p...

I finally had the chance to develop my dear films last Sunday at Digiprint, and Digiprint/ LBC delivered it last Thursday right at my doorstep! I really felt nervous the whole time I was waiting for the package; some feeling that almost felt like my heart's going to pop any moment. Anyhow, let me share to you the developed prints. Forgive me, for I am just a newbie in this big world of film. Let me warn you that this shots does not have any theme in it, it's totally random shots. Flowery Reese , a set on Flickr. Fujifilm Fujicolor 100 CD-R King Film Camera Socially and Wander Adapt , a set on Flickr. Kodak Extrachrome 200 CD-R King Film Camera Life at its Best , a set on Flickr. Fujicolor Superia X-tra 400 Holga 135BC With this, it brought me to five realizations: 1. I love grain more than anything. <3 2. What you see on the viewfinder, does not really reflect what the camera will shoot. 3. Flowers are really gorgeous. <3 4....