Why would you let me stay here?

"I would have loved to be part of the indie community. But I wasn't. I was looking for a community, I don't even know any people who are musicians. I never met that indie popular indie, whoever the fuck that is. Who IS indie? First of all, I can't really get my head around what indie music is. Because if you've heard of it, it's sort of pop music, right? Because it's, like, popular? Or is it just that it's not on the radio? It's not like I was in an indie community and then I blew up. It's like, I was living on the street and I'm not – like, for real, you know what I'm saying?" -Lana Del Rey One thing that brings me closer to marrying Lana (in my dreams), would be her sense of style and that involves her hair, her make-up, her clothes and her body. But the very main reason why I love her is her drunken feel like voice that soothes my soul. The perfect mix of mysterious agenda and coming out of the flesh. ...

Crazy how I think my emotions are in total jeopardy--laughing at a sudden thought, then crying the next. Initially felt like an escapee of mental or a woman on PMS (lol yeah). Yesterday was just a sample of it. Yeah yeah, I could have just slept on my heavily bruised heart about issues that has long been planted, but I decided otherwise. Those were the times I could not handle, or yet, handle on my own. My mind does not suffice my own judgement and realization, that it felt like the need to burst into poisonous juice. Desperate, probably, but desperate for comfort.  I, of all people, does not like to show my weakness. I always want to show the best side of me. I don't just give in to negative emotions at the moment. But when the night usually enclose to midnight, that's where my Dementoring stats begin (like last night, at least). A lot of people say that it's okay to be weak, it's okay to reveal my negative emotions, because that's the perfe...

adj 1 relating to or consisting in the gratification of the senses or the indulgence of appetite : fleshly 2 sensory  a : devoted to or preoccupied with the senses or appetites  b : voluptuous   A lot of people gets the wrong impression about me because I'm so mysterious (as they say). Well, too bad for you. You can't read my mind, while I can read yours. You should predict me as unpredictable.